i feel so alone

sometimes i feel like people are too selfish to truely care for anyone. while we are living we dont value those around us like we should. when they die then we want to voice our regrets and dwell on what could have been. i dont want to be the one people wish they said something to and waited til im gone. i want to find some way to be heard, and know that someone is truely listening.

im not so sure

i having been battling this issue for so long and at times it hinders me from moving forward. i am a realist. for those who dont know what that means...i am more logical than anything else and often times i need hard core facts. for many people thats cool until i argue something they support. i dont feel like i should have to hide how i feel or what i wonder. this is one goal i am setting for myself. how can i learn to let go of my own skeptical behavior and learn to accept new ideas without fact.